PiDal hiden Gender STORY
Hi every one, I`m new in the world of bloging im at the stage
of trial and error in discovering or more approriate term is EXPLORING
my new blog sitte set up; templates, background color, layout, design
and more. Pardon for my gramar im not white, im not black, im not
english, I`m KAYUMANGGI(BROWN) a Filipino color:-) .
Since its my first time here, let me introduce my self by sharing the story of my life from being girl turn to a man`s heart. Im the 4th child of the family of both profesional parent. My mother was a teacher and my father was a engeenering graduate. They both have a strong personlity that makes them dominat.
When i was young as 5year old, I play with my neighborhood. We always play BAHAY-BAHAYAN(HOME) its a drama game very popular to Filipino children. We have to act as one of the member of the family (father, mother, sister, brother and baby). It was the start of my journey in discovering my identity. I always fight for the role of Father. My older playmates say`s no! you are a girl its is not posible you will be a father. But ive wanted it and come on its just a drama please let me. They always answer me, no. Offcours im disappointed, as the drama game goes on i feel jelous for the actor. My mind questioning this words, Why can`t I?
When im in elemetary school ages 6-11 years old i discover my self having a crush to my girl classmates and lady teachers. I always look at my crush imagining my self to be their escort. Having a day dream about romance, Do i have to ask my self about my identity??? yes offcourse! Im totaly confiuse to my self im a girl having long hair, breast and a female organ. But why im attracted to the same kind of me. Ive enter to pubirty stage and i was to shy to show mu real me. Im affraid to my parent, my family and friends reaction and jugment.
I enter my high school life with ful of lies. I hide my self having my self esteem grow verry poor. Im to shy to every one i dont take to much time to bonding with others due to my worries about my gender. When im in ky 3rd year life, i found the girl that makes me fall for real that turns my romance day dreaming come true.
Lucky much she fall inlove with me, even she dont have any plan to have a relationship with a girl like her but it happen that she fall to my character. Im so bless to have her. And as time goes by i accept my real identity, but we can not expose to public. WHY? her parents was a strong religious follower and my parents have a clan of pure profesional in the field of teaching. For the pastthe 4 years of our relationship no ome knows about us. All of them knows as, as BEsT of friends. We believe for the right time.
Right now im 4th year HRM student im waiting for another 1year to finish my study to become a BS graduate. She is a fresh graduate of a private catholic school and working at the present. We have plan is life, that we are FOREVER. I`ve wanted to work abroad and leave with her in foreign land for my reason to have a trans operation and have a fair life with open sociaty for third sex.
Oh, some one knocking on my mind while i wrote the ending part.
haha some of you ask if what we looks like when we are together? how we meet? whats the love story behind our almost 5year relationship? and how we handle the trials of being a lover with the same sex?
Accutally to answer you honestly, its mind bleeding. hahah. All of the answers you`ve wanted will be given on my next post. Keep in touch. goodnight from the Philippines. Godbless
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Since its my first time here, let me introduce my self by sharing the story of my life from being girl turn to a man`s heart. Im the 4th child of the family of both profesional parent. My mother was a teacher and my father was a engeenering graduate. They both have a strong personlity that makes them dominat.
When i was young as 5year old, I play with my neighborhood. We always play BAHAY-BAHAYAN(HOME) its a drama game very popular to Filipino children. We have to act as one of the member of the family (father, mother, sister, brother and baby). It was the start of my journey in discovering my identity. I always fight for the role of Father. My older playmates say`s no! you are a girl its is not posible you will be a father. But ive wanted it and come on its just a drama please let me. They always answer me, no. Offcours im disappointed, as the drama game goes on i feel jelous for the actor. My mind questioning this words, Why can`t I?
When im in elemetary school ages 6-11 years old i discover my self having a crush to my girl classmates and lady teachers. I always look at my crush imagining my self to be their escort. Having a day dream about romance, Do i have to ask my self about my identity??? yes offcourse! Im totaly confiuse to my self im a girl having long hair, breast and a female organ. But why im attracted to the same kind of me. Ive enter to pubirty stage and i was to shy to show mu real me. Im affraid to my parent, my family and friends reaction and jugment.
I enter my high school life with ful of lies. I hide my self having my self esteem grow verry poor. Im to shy to every one i dont take to much time to bonding with others due to my worries about my gender. When im in ky 3rd year life, i found the girl that makes me fall for real that turns my romance day dreaming come true.
Lucky much she fall inlove with me, even she dont have any plan to have a relationship with a girl like her but it happen that she fall to my character. Im so bless to have her. And as time goes by i accept my real identity, but we can not expose to public. WHY? her parents was a strong religious follower and my parents have a clan of pure profesional in the field of teaching. For the pastthe 4 years of our relationship no ome knows about us. All of them knows as, as BEsT of friends. We believe for the right time.
Right now im 4th year HRM student im waiting for another 1year to finish my study to become a BS graduate. She is a fresh graduate of a private catholic school and working at the present. We have plan is life, that we are FOREVER. I`ve wanted to work abroad and leave with her in foreign land for my reason to have a trans operation and have a fair life with open sociaty for third sex.
Oh, some one knocking on my mind while i wrote the ending part.
haha some of you ask if what we looks like when we are together? how we meet? whats the love story behind our almost 5year relationship? and how we handle the trials of being a lover with the same sex?
Accutally to answer you honestly, its mind bleeding. hahah. All of the answers you`ve wanted will be given on my next post. Keep in touch. goodnight from the Philippines. Godbless
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